Thursday, October 27, 2011

Living Out What I Believe

Recently I prayed that I would not rest in any system of doctrine but that what I believe would be lived out in my life. It’s so easy to read and determine your doctrine on man or God, but it’s quite another to live it out daily. It's much easier to simply read about it. I often don’t even realize how I’m not living out what I say I believe.

For instance, I can say I have a God who is all-knowing, perfectly wise, whose ways are best and works all things out for my good. But will I completely entrust myself to His loving hand when things are difficult, or will I question His wisdom? If I doubt His goodness when things don’t happen the way I would like, am I really living out that truth I say I believe?

I recognize that fear, along with idols, have kept me from fully surrendering to God. I have not trusted God as fully as I thought and doubted His wisdom and plan—even though I would not have said that. I believed the doctrine in my head, but struggled to apply it. Now I realize that I must lay my whole life in His hands for Him to use me; I have to be a living sacrifice, willing to do whatever He desires.

Over the past years God has tried to teach me to trust Him (through various moves, challenges…) but I still had fear I was clinging to that was holding me back from really being able to say “Here I am, send me”. There were things I didn’t want to give up because I was afraid of what it could mean for me. But God wants me to trust His wisdom and plan and give myself wholly to Him, whatever that means for me. After all, I should count my life as lost compared to the unsearchable riches of knowing Christ, right?

"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."
Galatians 2:20

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Clear the Stage

In the past several months God has broken me of some idols I had been holding on to. I am so overjoyed because through the release of those idols I have felt such freedom where before I was tied to those things. A friend shared this pertinent song with me that I encourage you to listen to. 

(If you're unable to view it, click here)

Anything I put before my God is an idol.
Anything I want with all my heart is an idol.
Anything I can't stop thinking of is an idol.
Anything that I give all my love is an idol.
We must not worship something that's not even worth it.
Clear the stage and make some space for the One who deserves it.

May we clear the stage and put Christ in His rightful place. 


Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Finally posting... :)

I haven’t posted much in the last couple months; I haven’t known what to post. However, God has been doing a lot in my life—teaching me things, transforming me, drawing me closer to Him. I will use the next several posts to share more about what God has been doing in me, in hopes that it will be an encouragement to you. You will find that there are some things He has taught me over the past weeks or months, but also in a broader scope there are things that He has been working in my life for years that He has continued to teach me.

God has used recent circumstances to shake me up out of my complacency, to re-think priorities, to examine my heart, to seek Him more, to look back at what He has been doing in my life this year and to consider what His direction is for the near future. I am officially a college graduate, but now I’m seeking God to see what His direction is for this season of life.

Right now I don’t know completely what it means. My time is partially spent so it’s not like I have all day, every day to pray and plan through. But there are many good things I could do and profitable ways I could spend the time I have.
“As you seek to know and obey God’s will, you must wait to proceed until you clearly understand what God wants you to do and how He wants you to do it.” Henry Blackaby

Sometimes God doesn’t give us direction for more than one day at a time, because His desire is for us to seek Him and put our trust in Him. I know that if He told me what was on His agenda for the next ten years of my life I would plan what I did tomorrow around that. But God is so much wiser than I. I trust that He will guide me where He desires and excitedly await what He has in store!


Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Courageous Movie


If you haven't seen it yet, I'd highly encourage you to go while it is still in theaters. It is well worth your time. It's an amazing movie! Don't watch the trailer or opening scene until you've seen the movie though! :)